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If there is a place where I learn to start feeling my feelings and they become my barometer for self and
relationships - then this is the place.
If there is a place where fear and excitement, anger and sadness, guilt and shame can co-exist at the same
time, then this is the place

If there is a place where I express myself with a certain intention and it affects others in an unexpected
way, and I then start appreciating the difference between intent and impact- then this is the place.

If there is a place where I test the boundaries of my vulnerability and explore myself looking into the
mirrors that others show me - then this is the place.
If there is a place where an eternal dance of self-disclosure and feedback is on - then this is the place

If there is a place where I learn how to diagnose group processes, hypothesise, and test my assumptions
- then this is the place.

If there is a place where I discover that unresolved traumas and shadows of the past are still my lens in
my current relationships - then this is the place.
If there is a place where aspects of my psyche sitting quietly in some part of my core get the voice and
vocabulary to make their presence felt – then this is the place

If there is a place where behavioural change begins to result in more fulfilling relationship with self and
others - then this is the place.

This concoction was supported by two fabulous facilitators, the wisdom and presence of 10 group
members, and also the recipe to learn about self, interpersonal relationships, group, and large systems.
As I sit in deep gratitude of the sacredness of those 5 days, I am also looking forward to the path ahead.

I know I will keep coming back to the lab for more – almost ‘choicelessly’, because I know I feel most alive
here. My love affair with self and process work has just begun. Is it for personal development? Yes. Is it
for professional development? Yes. Is it for spiritual growth? Yes. Is it a way of seeking peace and living a
life of purpose? Yes.

I am ready to plunge again into these mystical waters which don’t have a known depth or definite
destination. The logs, the mentors, the manoeuvring through the system, the toil, the fun, the growth,
and the ‘feeling of all feelings’ awaits me.

My PDP journey begins soon. I remember listening to my facilitators explaining the next steps in PDP and
my own going inward into how I felt in that moment. I clearly envisioned the image of me, sitting in this
lab setting... Will this vision evolve? Maybe, maybe not... But that’s food for “then and there”- Currently
I am in the “here and now”.

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